No proofreading, no nothing..im writing my note..RAW..and u r reading it RAWSOME!!
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I won’t be the best writer , i may be the worst now!!..
u just read and decide if it deserves a Wow!
…Some feelings are going to be shown here,
If ur not in the mood, just stop here!

…I feel like letting out the sweetest cry,
because u r only a big sweet lie!!
or am i an expecter of the impossible?..
Don’t answer, because ull just LIE!
and impossible as u uttered a lot,
It would never occupy my world!

..Maybe time means nothing,
for u,
But for me, the clock ticking,
means opposite u!
u running never like time does..
waiting for it is nothing like waiting for u,
Ignoring won’t mean ignoring u..

Time runs when we’re in our best moments..
u ran when i was at my worst moments…
Waiting for the hour clock is annoying,
..but waiting for u seemed like fun!
fun to know what would happen next
i was not even thinking that someone would run!
Where’s the fun in th next that has past?
Ignoring it..nerve stimulating..
..asking about ignoring u..the nerve irritating,

What about the time we spent?
what about the depart that was never meant?
What about our laughs and smirks?
ur promises and good words?

Am i supposed to be just a listener?..
a listener that never listens?…
Listens but never trusts a speaker?..
a speaker who’s words are spoke, but does not mean them?…

Look how i live in circles and ovals,
many tell me that,
and it’s true most of the time,
Lots of questions but few answers..
stay with me..i think they’re fine..
The answer i will know later..
just like u, u were a question,
answered after a while…
Ur deception, how could u mention?..
..only showed ur tenderness and gentle file…

BUT, just like time heals,
so does it show..
somethings that soemone feels,
that his other may not know…
WHY KNOW?..when the fake reality is sweet!!
WHY KEEP HIDDEN?..the bitter truth underneath?..

Do not be afraid of hurting my feelings,
Im a big girl now, I can handle it well..
Or i think i can..depends on the dwellings…
I still can’t believe that Big Thing we had had fell!!
Could u, how?..really, how could u believe ur own lies?..
Lies you convinced yourself are true..
I won’t dwell with that anymore…

The reason im writing..is weirder than our present hello,
no more..OUR..it’s u and i..u wanted that,
Yesterday we were clenching hands,
and today, we’re saluting from far,
because we think we’re supposed to..
Im not..you are not..
End this lie..

On the note page i now write, feelings were and are in the heart..
ur clock is no different than mine..we just handle it differently..
Your lie is your own truth..it seperated us both apart…
I know it’s been a while, but u must be aware, and quickly,
That for me, ur an empty clock..timeless..handless..
Your lie..accept it being a lie..
accept it lying on reality,
queching mortality,
yes, it is deadly,
no, im not done yet..

This note of endless words ..how is it?..
yeah..u tell me..

NOW IM DONE
……………………..……………………..……………~ Zeina Nasser…….30/07/2009 ~

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